Sunday, September 26, 2010

Where do I belong?

I'm kind of a man without a country right now.
Don't belong at my mom's place, thanks to my brother and way too much drama that is involved surrounding him and my mom.
So now I'm staying at my fiancee's place but I feel like I am not suppose to be here, i feel like her roommate is allowing me to stay because he thinks he has to. Which he doesn't. He has every right to say that its not cool if I crash here.
So I'm kind of blowing in the wind.
I've got a shittastic job that pays 8 bucks an hour though its full time so I can't afford a place of my own right now.
I need to get it figured out soon. I want to have a place to be comfortable by february so when the baby comes I'll be settled in and my fiancee' and I won't have to move after the baby comes.
The San Diego move has been postponed because of the recent developments so who knows what thats gonna happen. All I know is Wisconsin feels like purgatory, atleast in the sense of the actual living here part after life in Minneapolis.
Growing up I always wanted to get the fuck away from Wisconsin, then I did, then I lost my job and couldn't find anything to work so I had to move back and I thought it would be for long enough to save up some money to get the fuck outta here. ( i don't regret why I'm gonna be here longer)
Hopefully once the eggplant gets to a year old we can say fuck it and finally get out of this deadzone called the midwest.
I got alot of shit to work out.
Oh yea, FUCK WINTER, its not even here yet but it can fuck off proper.
Enough pissing and moaning.
Went to see Gaslight Anthem last week and it was super rad. Getting to go see Valient Thorr on Friday. So that should be a nice way to unwind.

P.S. As much as I bitch about living in Wisconsin, I am so happy to be with my fiancee' especially that she has the sense of humor of a 15 year old boy, all i have to do is make the armpit farting noise and she cracks up. I can't wait for her to be done with school so we should be able to get to spend time together without her being totally wiped of energy. It will be so nice to have time to spend together other than the hour between when i get home from work and when she goes to bed.
I'm also super excited for my kid to get here, I am absolutely looking forward to him/her to arrive I am even fine with diaper changing, atleast I hope so. Its gonna be a fun,scary interesting ride I'm about to embark on.

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