Tuesday, March 23, 2010

A Fire Inside The Con

Is it just me or does Tegan and Sara look like Davey Havok?? I think the girls should start an AFI coverband and each dress as a different version of Davey Havok.
Think about it.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

I Never Travel Far... Without a little Big Star....

Drama-ville.

I got an old flame who just got back in contact with me. Gist of it is she may want to try to get back together with me. She wants me to fly down and see her. I'm so nervous on what to do because I'm such a hopeless romantic that it would be so easy for me to fall right back in with her.
She was very sincere in apologizing and admitted to things I already knew but she didn't know that I had this info already. But hearing her finally admit to it seems like a huge step in the right direction. Maybe????
But then there is one girl who I have gone on a few dates with and got along with, is cute and fun.

Then another girl who is friends of a friend in Wisconsin and is kind of digging me. That I'm suppose to meet up with in a few weeks.

And a neighbor sending me naughty photos on my phone just to flirt.

Why is this a problem you ask? And I asked myself that as well.
This is how it goes for me, either i have a couple girls interested in me or none at all and i'm left with my dick in my hand.
Is it fair to continue to see these girls while knowing that if visit former flame i'll most likely be back into her again? Should I even visit? What if former flame and I don't work out and I toss aside these girls who have some real potential. Am I overthinking things right now?

I guess I'm getting at that I'm clusterfuck confused. This year is gonna be my year of change and I never knew what that meant yet and still kinda don't, I wanna move but what if I find a girl here that is awesome.
I have no answers at 1:27am and I doubt any will come to me in my sleep. Why can't girls be simple and come to me one at a time instead of a flood of them at once and then i fall into a drought.
I'm too easily led astray, I have female ADD maybe. I dunno.
Hoping one of my best friends can give me some insightful advice on how to proceed.

Thursday, March 11, 2010

Soon, we'll have you disco dancing like the stars

On Tuesday I signed up for a gym membership at the YWCA. I went with Katie later in the evening. We worked out for about an hour or so.
Guess what...
I fucking over did it. Now my arms hurt to stretch out. Its painful.
I wanted to go back tonight but with the amount of pain i'm in I might have to wait atleast until tomorrow.
I does feel good when getting back from the gym though. I'm finally doing something good for my body. About damn time.

Still checking out the dating websites, had a few interesting hits. Maybe one of them will end up being someone worth taking out on a date. who knows. Its not as pathetic as i first though.

New Daughters album is fucking amazing.
Might go see Young WIdows at Turf club tomorrow night, dunno yet.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010

There is no such thing as Candy Mountain...

So I've taken the step of the unoriginal and possibly desperate... I've added a profile to a dating website. A free one none the less.
Who knows if its gonna get me anything since I've always though that its usually populated by those who no one would touch otherwise.
But at a friends suggestion I decided to give it a shot.
Since I hang around the same 4 bars or at home, i tend to see the same people and after you have been through enough random heroes, you realize that the bar scene is no place for anything long term.
I doubt I will be one of those that get paraded around on an E-Harmony type commerical for a website and thats fine, I'm looking at it as "at least I'm expanding my field of vision"
Updates will come if anything positive unfolds, otherwise same ol' same ol'.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

When in Rome We'll do as the Romans, When in Hell We Do Shots at the Bar

Welcome to my Sunday afternoon whine-fest.
So whats new?
Absolutely nothing. I've been laying in bed til 3pm or so most days for lack of anything better to do.
Alot of it is that my bed is just too comfortable. I should throw some broken glass under the covers or something to condition myself to stay out as much as possible. Haha.
My truck is idling really high lately which means I'm sure there is something expensive that needs to be fixed. Surprise surprise. After dropping 900 bucks a few months ago on new brake system now I'll have to drop a bunch on something else. I barely even drive the fucking thing anyway. Only to go to the store or trips down to my mom. But I guess thats the joy of vehicle ownership.

I don't know what it is about Sundays but I am always in a foul mood, maybe because liquor stores are closed, or all the idiots are off of work and running around, maybe because there isn't shit on television, I think it has something to do with the way the sun shines on Sundays, its completely different from any other day of the week. If i were trapped for months without a way of keeping up with the days of the week and was let out on a sunday, I'd know right away simply from the way the sun shines. Its a fucking weird notion but seems to be true. Kind of like I can tell when a tv is on in another room without hearing it. I hear the electricity buzzing almost inaudibly but i know its going. Odd.

No decision on what my plans are yet for living arrangements once my lease is up. I don't know where I want to ramble on to next. Do i want to go back to Wisconsin and live in Madison?
That would almost feel like defeat, coming home, but I'd get to hang with some friends regularly.
Then there is San Diego. Sounds really great, but its kind of expensive to move to but lots of sun and warm weather. Bike riding and surfing
Or what about Austin Tx? I've kind of wanted to move there for the movie industry that is growing there, plus South by Southwest music fest and Austin City Limits fest, but then again its surrounded by the rest of Texas.
Perhaps I just stay in Minneapolis, I love my friends and alot of the joints in the area but I feel bored here, like I've seen everything there is to see and the dating scene is pretty dry unless i want some party girl who goes to the clubs downtown.
Either way, its like the grass is always greener on the other side of the fence, no matter where I land I'll want to be somewhere else.
Unless along the way I get stuck on a girl. That always seems to be my deciding factor.
Why?
Because I'm one of those hopeless romantics that comes off overly desperate. haha, sad but true.
All i know is i need to explore my options while i have the cash to afford such luxury.

I just realized that i could whine about alot of things, jobless, lonely, bored, etc... but I know i have it better off than a shit ton of people I know.
Oh the trials and tribulations of the over-privilaged. HAHA.
If i could just find that shut off button for my brain sometime I wouldn't be overthinking things and then wouldn't have any reason to complain.

I'll treat you with two of my favorite music videos for sitting through all the pissing and moaning